There are times when, in order for me to reconcile my mind, heart, and spirit, I need to just get some things off my chest and put what I call a “Confestimony” out into the universe. Today is one of those times………….. again. Keep in mind that for some this takes courage, and we’re all human and imperfect before God.
In the last couple of weeks, Facebook has made a few upgrades to their site, including a new look to the whole “Friend Suggestion” feature. Every once in a while, I will browse through there to see who they suggest. Without fail, every time I go in there, FB will suggest dozens of folks in which me and said person have at LEAST 100+ friends in common. To add on top of it, they are people that I used to know, but no longer keep in contact with (mostly women from my undergrad institution, just being honest).
When I think upon what has transpired in my life over the last couple of years, it brought things into perspective for me as to how much I have cut the BS (yes I mean people too) out of my life. There were a lot of people in my life (including my own frat brothers) who were just non-value added and/or borderline toxic to my growth as a man, and I stopped justifying their place in my life because of loyalty to my organizations, to my university, or to “history”.
As little fun as I have had in Chicago in my two years here, the quiet nights spent at home has allowed me to hear God more and work on me. It allowed me to realize that I spent too much time worrying about the wrong things and the wrong people. If there’s one personal blessing in being in the Chi, it’s given me the opportunity to get away from the noise of “the crowd” and see who needed to stick around in order for me to work towards the next level.
Everyone doesn’t see your greatness, your value, the God in you; everyone isn’t meant to. I’m at a point in my life now where I am less tolerant of in-authentic folk and less apologetic of being authentic with others. Maybe you can chalk it up to maturity or to discernment. Whatever it is, I thank God for it. You can’t gain muscle without losing fat. And given that I’ve cut over 2000 friends (on FB) and gained 30 pounds, although not directly correlated, it proves the aforementioned point.
So for those who are reading this who I consider at least an associate, don’t speak too much ill on those folks within that 2000 (which I’m sure you will know at least 100 of them yourself). In the words of Karen Clark-Sheard, leave my Judas alone, because if it wasn’t for Judas, it wouldn’t have pushed Jesus to the next level. I see 2011 as that journey to the next level, and although I want to avoid the adverse times, I know it will only make me better in the long run because of the lessons I will learn.
Now………………..
If you are reading this, and are in that number or who will soon be in that number if you don’t get some act right, including, but not limited to the following:
- People who have talked/lied about me behind my back and the rocks cried out on your trifling ways
- Women who I wanted to date and threw me into platonic prison without parole and got salty for me breaking out and not settling for 2nd choice, and thereby moved into the first bullet
- People who I just simply grew apart from over the years
- People who unknowingly disrupted my connection to God and His will in my life
You are forgiven! However, that doesn’t mean we’re good now. Don’t get it twisted. Maybe our paths will cross again (outside of homecoming or trips to your city), and maybe God will allow for us to be connected again. But right now, continue to live your life, and do what’s best for you.
Amen!
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